I NEED A GETAWAY

Getting emo these days. Seriously why?? At such a time. Haiz. There are so many ways to look at one thing. Just too many that I don't know which way I should tell myself to adopt. I can only tell myself not to think about it, let it go and it will very fast become a history. I know I haven't done enough for anyone, and maybe even for myself. I really have to agree that one must learn to love self before learning how to love others. For now, I don't even see a good thing of myself. Feel like going elsewhere to reflect, get a different view and feel of myself.

 

Too many things are happening and changing. Sometimes I really wish I could speak to someone or even a psychologist and ask for guidance. Someone that I can really share without afraid of anything, guide and change me.
- I want to be energetic but I always can’t. Can’t bring myself to be so for some unknown reasons.
- I want to be less detailed for I don't know if that is good. Think I'm over-detailed now. So much that I'm getting disappointed easily.
- I want to be more expressive, more decisive, more firm and more interactive but I don't know how.
- I want to connect to others but I don't know how.
and many more.

Well, i guess meanwhile all i can do is probably read books and learn from others.