i realised i have been uploading videos only.

haha. so here shall be some words.

some updates, but no photos cos im lazy to upload.

photos shall be left for the next time.

which is dont know when..

hahaha.

if want to talk abt exams,

i only dare to sigh. not much confidence.

but still, hope its alright.

everytime i think of it, i just feel like tearing.

argh. im..

feeling disappointed of myself.

not becos i have high hopes of it, but i screwed it up myself.

need a gd rest.

but i just cant to slp well everyday.

having dreams.

cant my brain just take a rest?

no wonder its deteriorating faster than it shld be.

i'm too easily affected by others.

i dont want it to be like this.

it will make me very confused and messy.

can i stop being like this?

i hate it.

think as ppl grow up, they will think more.

of course right. they know more, think more..

wonder if its good to think.

need a balance for sure.

so can my brain rest?

i dont want to think anymore!

sometimes i also feel lonely.

not becos i dont have a life partner.

but probably i slowly understand what i was told.

i want to prove them wrong.

i always thought that is wrong.

but..

things dont seem to be so.

how i wish i am not affected.

i feel lost. really. lost.

hope everything will be fine soon.

pray hard for me k? (: thks.

ok, enough of those negative things.

happy things shall start here (:

my holidays started with Boys Before Flowers (:

and all abt SS501 (:

as shown from all the videos.

hahahah.

=P

one fine day, we went Novena for lunch.

the food i ordered was not what i expected.

But its still nice.

a good experience of korean food definitely.

though their service not so great when we went.

hahah.

then we went cycling at ECP.

it was fun totally!

though tiring.

but still, smiles.

we chatted at the seats below sy's grandma's hse.

haha.

and after exams, i've went tampines one for quite a few times.

within the first week, i've went abt 3 or 4 times.

and after that, even more.

ahahhaha.

also watched 17 again with zy and mn.

played badminton and rented movies.

last sat, i also went out with joanna.

then we went for our class outing.

the most heart breakening thing is the expensive dinner jap buffet i had at Hanabi.

and the most guilty thing is that day was a vesak day.

if its not to celebrate my classmate bdae, i wouldnt have gone.

cos i didnt want to go for the activity after tat, yet i dont want to miss the outing.

cos i dont always go for class outings.

=x

but im not regretting for going.

and to make it up, i shall be a vegetarian for at least 3 months.

not sure if i shld actually do this.

haiz.

im always feeling so confused.

i need some guidance.

in fact, i like talking abt life, moral values and stuff.

i enjoyed the lunch with zy's mentor cos her mentor talked abt related stuff.

i dont mind finding him to chat.

its good to chat abt it cos i need someone to tell me..

anyway, i shall go have my dinner now.

meeting rf tmr (:

pre-ordering sims 3 TMR!

hahahah.

i'm so excited.

after my show, i've been playing sims 2 all day.

ahahha.

i want to try out as many stuff as i can before i get my sims 3.

lol.

awaits for the launch party!

and lastly, im going msia from 14 to 17may.

to visit my ah ma in KL (: